Warning: Possible TMI

That should really apply to all my posts. All intensely personal.

Reader: Beatnikchik
Deck: Tarot of the Ages
Query: Situation surrounding potential loss of virginity.

1st Spread: 13-card

P of S _______6c_______ __6w
______9s_______Hierophant
Tower______ Star______ Judgement
______10p_______ Death
5w_________10s________Sun


Breakdown:
Major Arcana - 6
Swords (s) - 3 Pentacles (p) - 1
Wands (w) - 2 Cups (c) - 1
6's - 2 10's - 2

Right half + 6c = Relationship with Apollo, Left half + 10s = Conflict with some person over loss of virginity

Themes (Beatnikchik's observations):

• Give of self, but stand ground in confrontation, don't allow self to be belittled.
  
• Trust own Judgement.
• Take Apollo @ his word, don't compare him to past.
  
• This will change my world.

Particulars (What I make of it):

• 6w -> Judgement -> Sun = victory over conflict/advancement combined with a carefully made decision results in deep contentment.
• Death = well, pretty obvious...death of my Maiden self and rebirth...at the hands of the Hierophant, card of Taurus, sign of my Apollo.
• 6c = innocence, childhood, past cherished, but moved on into 6w
• PofS -> Tower -> 5w = When made known to someone, their world falls into upheaval and conflict results.
• 10s, 10p, and 9s = This person was looking to me for permanence, as something stable and dependable. But this throws them into despair.

2nd Spread: The Conflict, Expanded. 15 cards, (1) laid down first, (2) laid down second.

(2) King of C______3s______Empress (i)______Fool______Temperence
(1) 8w_________QofP_______4w________Knight of S_______10w
(2) King of P______4s_______10c___________8c___________9c

Breakdown:
MA - 3
S - 3 W - 3
P - 2 C - 3
Kings - 2
4's - 2 8's - 2

Themes:

• He's impetuous, immature, hot-headed - a "How dare you" feel.
• My pain is on acct. of his pain.
• Neil feels it too...because I feel it.
• My patience wears thin
• Beware of feeling selfish - I shouldn't.
• I'll be ok. Apollo and a good support system get me through.

Particulars:

• 8 &10w = hasty action, burdensome for them.
• Despite feeling heavy and weary (8c), Apollo (K of P) will be stable and my world will be quite right (10 & 9 c)
• 4s = May need time alone to rest, separate self from issue.
• 8c also signifies a giving up, a moving on.
• Looks like this could be salvaged (4w), possibly via the Hippie Pair (Temp and King of C) and some feminine intuition.
  

3rd Spread: Conflict, cont'd. 9 cards

__________Chariot
_____Q of S______7c
Q of C_____A of S_____5c
______7s________2s
_________A of C

Breakdown:
MA - 1
S - 4 C - 4
A's - 2 Q's - 2
7's - 2

Themes:

• Lots of balancing, struggling.
• This is a very deep, personal offense for him.
• False sense of ownership
• This has been resolved before, but just now hurts him.

Particulars:

• A's speak of very deep mental and emotional love and thus wounds here.
• Chariot speaks of haste and conflict, while 2s says balance found.
• 7's talk of delusions and daydreams, thus false ownership, false expectations.
• 5c speaks of something lost not to be regained.
• Queens parallel Aces - emphasize the feminine nature to this grief.