another directional...

Reader: Myself
Deck: Universal Waite
Query: On what area[s] of my life should I be focusing my energies?

Spread: 13-card, with clarifiers - out-most cards, R and L.

_____Hermit_____Fool____Emperor, i
KgofS_____KtofW_____Tower_______4p
_____Empress____AofP___Judgement
PofP______AofW______KgofW______8c
_____QofC, i_____Sun_______7p

Breakdown:
MA: 7 (!?!?!)
W - 3 S - 1
C - 2 P - 4
A's - 2 Kings - 2

Notes:
So. I'm in a place where all my practical needs are met and things are going pretty durn well for me, at least in the material realm (AofP). The bulk of my energy, focused on things outside myself, should be on:
1. My creativity.

• Opening new paths, new creative territory with vigor (Knight of W). This can be accomplished by combining my feminine intuition, feeling, and care for the subject/work (Empress) and contemplation, vigilence, and solitary study (Hermit) with great mental strength, my powers of analysis and insight (King of Swords). I think this hits my thesis riiiight on the fuckin' nose.
• New efforts, beginning of a meaningful creative and/or spiritual experience. (A of W). Combining, again, my femininity - my womanhood and all the intution, care, sensuousness, and creativity that goes with that (Empress) - with what I've been hiding from. Most notably, the parts of my identity as a woman that I have not yet accpeted into myself...about which I'm still deceiving myself (Queen of Cups, inv.). This undertaking should occur quietly, patiently. I must be patient and gentle with myself and allow myself lots of time for reflection and true contemplation (Page of Pentacles). This, I think, refers to both my creative writing and work and my spirituality. I still shy away from spending time with the latter...I'm almost afraid of what I'll find. Thus the need to be gentle and patient.

2. The Future/The Real World

• "The times, they are a-changin'" (Tower). This could be, and probably is, the whole thinking-about-grad-school-and-living-off-campus-and-what-about-Apollo thing. I still have my uncertainties about this...no part of it is resolved yet, nothing's decided (Emperor, inv). But, in the wake of this Change, there is a Large rebirth/renewal even in the midst of uncertainties (Judgement) - maybe an influx of decision? Not expected anytime soon...but perchance. I may, however, attempt to hold on to things I shouldn't as a result of insecurities/uncertainties...or let money be too much of a factor (4p).
  
• There is, concurrantly with this Change, the oppertunity for maturing and growth as a Person In the Real World, and, I feel, in relationships (King of W). There is renewal - maybe a change in view or a realization of my competency or of something about my relationship with Apollo (Judgement) - connected to concious, steady work and growth (7p). But, as this will be work...I may be tempted to give up, cut out early, and walk off - or to be too timid and make too little of it (8c).

Now for Me, Personally -

• Play/Let Go (Fool) Be silly, don't forget your inner child in this time of Change and quest for maturity and creative/academic development. Cry if you need to. Laugh a lot. Don't forget about the nonrational part of you. Don't forget to let go now and then.
• Love/Joy/Pleasure (Sun) Enjoy the small stuff. And the big stuff. Bask in your successes - take encouragement from them. Revel in the love you and Apollo share. Pay attention to Spring, as it comes. Don't forget...you are a creature of Joy! And you were meant to be! Take the gift gladly.

Whew. I forget how breath-taking Tarot can be.

Daphne and Apollo...

really, more Eros and Psyche. But still.

Readers: Me/Apollo
Deck: Universal Waite
Query: Relationship Status, basically.

Spread: 7-card

Knight of W____Hermit____7s____9p____A of W____Knight of C
_____________________Hierophant

Breakdown:
MA - 2
S - 1 C - 1
W - 2
Knights - 2

Notes:
So, I've been prudent, discreet, and very unhasty in my examination of the possiblity of sex with Apollo (9p). He has a sense of futility in our sexual life - he enjoys it and looks forward to "actual sex", but it drains him (7s).
I'm need to spend time in internal consultation, or alternately, I need to disclose and open up more. Or both. (Hermit) Apollo needs to excercise his creative energy and be involved in a process of creation. (A of W) My growth and seeking right now is on an emotional level (Knight of C), whereas Apollo's main journey is in the spiritual/creative arena (Knight of W)
His sign's card is the controlling/central card. So, at this point, he's pretty much in control of the relationship, and the relationship is characterized by slow progress, maturity, and a certain stubborness about not being the first to make a move.

Warning: Possible TMI

That should really apply to all my posts. All intensely personal.

Reader: Beatnikchik
Deck: Tarot of the Ages
Query: Situation surrounding potential loss of virginity.

1st Spread: 13-card

P of S _______6c_______ __6w
______9s_______Hierophant
Tower______ Star______ Judgement
______10p_______ Death
5w_________10s________Sun


Breakdown:
Major Arcana - 6
Swords (s) - 3 Pentacles (p) - 1
Wands (w) - 2 Cups (c) - 1
6's - 2 10's - 2

Right half + 6c = Relationship with Apollo, Left half + 10s = Conflict with some person over loss of virginity

Themes (Beatnikchik's observations):

• Give of self, but stand ground in confrontation, don't allow self to be belittled.
  
• Trust own Judgement.
• Take Apollo @ his word, don't compare him to past.
  
• This will change my world.

Particulars (What I make of it):

• 6w -> Judgement -> Sun = victory over conflict/advancement combined with a carefully made decision results in deep contentment.
• Death = well, pretty obvious...death of my Maiden self and rebirth...at the hands of the Hierophant, card of Taurus, sign of my Apollo.
• 6c = innocence, childhood, past cherished, but moved on into 6w
• PofS -> Tower -> 5w = When made known to someone, their world falls into upheaval and conflict results.
• 10s, 10p, and 9s = This person was looking to me for permanence, as something stable and dependable. But this throws them into despair.

2nd Spread: The Conflict, Expanded. 15 cards, (1) laid down first, (2) laid down second.

(2) King of C______3s______Empress (i)______Fool______Temperence
(1) 8w_________QofP_______4w________Knight of S_______10w
(2) King of P______4s_______10c___________8c___________9c

Breakdown:
MA - 3
S - 3 W - 3
P - 2 C - 3
Kings - 2
4's - 2 8's - 2

Themes:

• He's impetuous, immature, hot-headed - a "How dare you" feel.
• My pain is on acct. of his pain.
• Neil feels it too...because I feel it.
• My patience wears thin
• Beware of feeling selfish - I shouldn't.
• I'll be ok. Apollo and a good support system get me through.

Particulars:

• 8 &10w = hasty action, burdensome for them.
• Despite feeling heavy and weary (8c), Apollo (K of P) will be stable and my world will be quite right (10 & 9 c)
• 4s = May need time alone to rest, separate self from issue.
• 8c also signifies a giving up, a moving on.
• Looks like this could be salvaged (4w), possibly via the Hippie Pair (Temp and King of C) and some feminine intuition.
  

3rd Spread: Conflict, cont'd. 9 cards

__________Chariot
_____Q of S______7c
Q of C_____A of S_____5c
______7s________2s
_________A of C

Breakdown:
MA - 1
S - 4 C - 4
A's - 2 Q's - 2
7's - 2

Themes:

• Lots of balancing, struggling.
• This is a very deep, personal offense for him.
• False sense of ownership
• This has been resolved before, but just now hurts him.

Particulars:

• A's speak of very deep mental and emotional love and thus wounds here.
• Chariot speaks of haste and conflict, while 2s says balance found.
• 7's talk of delusions and daydreams, thus false ownership, false expectations.
• 5c speaks of something lost not to be regained.
• Queens parallel Aces - emphasize the feminine nature to this grief.

Follow-up on 3/30

Reader: The Satyr
Deck: Crowley's Thoth Deck
Query: Follow-up on 3/30

Preliminary Spread:

Priestess (i)________Hermit
________Princess of W
________Hierophant
__________Aeon
4c______________Knight of C

Breakdown:
MA - 4
W - 1 C - 2

Thoughts:

• Still in Hierophant. We've been over this.
  
• Negatives: I'm fearful of my femininity, my "inner goddess", doubtful in my identity as a woman. Unready to celebrate my femininity in a physical sense (Priestess, inv.) This leads me to linger over the decision/quest, taking too much time with it (4c).
• Positives:I'm beginning to delve into this on my own, doing as I'm supposed to, both on an intellectual/physical level (Hermit) and an emotional/spiritual level (Knight of C).
  
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• Some of both: Priestess (i)'s fear and hesitancy with the Hermit's seeking has left my passions a bit repressed and wanting attention (Princess of Wands). Because of my hesitancy/leisurely efforts (4c), the quest I've started (Knight of C) will be harder. It's a tear down and rebuild matter. (Aeon) This we knew.

Main Reading: Celtic Cross, w/Significator and 2-Ways

Wheel -

_______________6w (i)
Priestess (i)______Hiero_______8c
_________cover: 2p, cross: Moon
_______________4w(i)

Staff -

Aof C_____AofP
____QofP (i)
_____2c
____QofW (i)
_____5w

Breakdown:
MA - 3
W - 4, P - 3
C - 3
Q's - 2 A's - 2
2's - 2

Thoughts:

• Hiero - we've been over this.
• There's a lack of change. (2p, inv) Means I haven't been moving like I should...or just haven't gotten there yet. But also a feeling of stagnation.
• There's a mysterious circumstance, a deception (Moon). Uncertainties may be the obstacles that get me moving. Or they may hinder more.
• Priestess (i) - see prelim. notes.
• There is brokenness, dark emotion forecasted (8c)...outcome of continued stagnation.
• My knowledge of my incompleteness, my unfinished quest and need for change keeps me going (4w, inv).
• A defeat is what I must hope for (6w, inv). Defeat of stagnation? of lack of change? of indolence? or of old ways of thought? or both?
• I am balanced between total control and no control. I am in conflict, in uncertainty (5w).
• This control, at least in the mental/spiritual arena, looks to disappear entirely (QofW, inv).
• BUT, this loss of control (defeat?) leads to an emotional stability, a fullness (2c).
• Which, in turn, leads to lack of control in the physical realm, indiscretions (QofP, inv)
• 2 Ways - AofC or AofP. Abundance in either the spiritual/emotional or the physical/material.

WTF is WWWoD?

The Wide Wonderful World of Divination, of course.

I have come upon the idea that I ought to get the (sometimes obsessively) detailed Divination transcripts I have kept for the past little while into an online format. This is mostly meant to be read with my blog, as that is where outcomes will become evident. This blog is solely for talking about the content of Tarot readings, outcome of I Ching casts, and the ongoing behavior of my pendulum. This way, I can have a resource to link up the cards and hexagrams that tend to repeat that's easier than constant flipping in the actual book I keep that stuff in, and can easily share transcripts of readings with others.

And yes, I know that Divination is not a science. And yes, I know Minerva McGonagall wouldn't approve.

I am not entirely sure from whence the eerie accuracy of divination comes, but I've observed it enough to have some faith that there's something to it, or at the very least that it does no harm. These are the symbols I use to tap my subconscious, maybe, or maybe the Divine Randomness. Perhaps even the Holy Chao. To combine that with what often acts as the closest thing I have to a personal journal or mood diary will give me better access to the accuracy of my thoughts and judgements, and maybe someone else will benefit from it.

Entries before this will be backdated on Blogger to indicate the matching date in the Book. Later commentary that predates this writing will be boldfaced and dated inside the readings.

If you would like a reading, hit up my profile for the email; non F2F readings are more difficult, but I love the opportunity to practice, and I won't charge you. I will post it here with a link to your site, with your permission; that's all I ask for the trouble.

This is LadyA, sharing Parce's space...

Reader: The Satyr
Deck: Aleister Crowley's Thoth Deck.
Query: What do I need to know about my sexuality w/r/t my spirituality?

Preliminary Spread:

________Corporeal
Neg.__________________Pos.
Knight of C_____________Sun
___________2w
________Hierophant
___________4w
Hanged Man____________AofW
________Spiritual

Breakdown:
MA - 3
W - 3 C - 1

Thoughts:

• My current position is one of seeking wisdom from those higher than me, of wrestling with spiritual problems, of working out my moral code. (Hierophant)
  
• The current quest in the emotional realm (Knight of C) is distracting/confusing me. Source of my query. This trouble with the quest in the physical realm is connected to my lack of discipline in the Spiritual (Hanged Man)
• Apart from the quest, things in the physical are peachy (Sun). Likewise, despite a lack of discipline, I showcase a great amount of passion and fervor in my spiritual life (A of W).
  
• The place I'm working toward in the physical is getting everything under control, getting a handle on the quest so all is under the Sun (2w). In the spiritual, I'm looking for completion, for the blending of passioun and discipline (4w).

Main Reading: Celtic Cross, w/ Significator and 2 outcomes
Wheel -

___________Death
8s__________Hiero__________Universe
_____cover: Fool, cross: Hermit
_________Princess of S

Staff -

5p_______Princess of C (2 outcomes)
____8p
__Art (Temperence)
__Aeon (Judgement)
Knight of P

Dropped clarifier - Queen of P

Breakdown:
MA - 7
S - 2 P - 3
C - 1
8's - 2

Thoughts:

• Hiero covered by Fool and crossed by Hermit = search on my own, introspection to avoid/escape Fool and attain control and will of Hiero. I can't let this one go. I have to seek for myself.
• Past/Future - Mental debate/interferance (8s). This has been plauging me for a while. Forcasts a peace and control of my world (Universe).
• Supporting - Logical thought, think through, be honest and ethical - what I know to be right (Princess of S).
• Highest Outcome - Complete rebirth of/in my world. (Death) Looking back, pertains to virginity?
• Knight of P - quest in the physical, quest to understand sexuality and it's place in my life.
• Aeon - quest will shake up my world, bring renewing.
• Art - rebuild and renew by learning proportion, temperance - blend and balance of sexuality and spirituality.
• 8p - knowing the correct thing to do w/ what comes from rebuilding - finding what I've been seeking.
• 2 Ways - 5p = wrong way leads to needless worry and fretting. Princess of C = right way leads to realm of possibilities in new Universe.
• Dropped Card - Q of P = the feminine in the physical world. Strong indication to explore MY femininity in this physical realm.